It's My Blog...It's My Life!!!

[Richard Howardson]

It's 4:39 am over here at my place. And thinking about the incident or better say accident i witnessed, i just can't sleep.

My friends and I, we were out for a long drive at around 1 am in the morning. We felt hungry so went to a restaurant which was closed but they give parcel for home (which is illegal). While returning we saw a crowd gathered near a tree. I stopped my bike and went to see what's the matter. And there it was a guy lying there covered in blood and his scooter lying near him. I asked the people standing there and they told he dashed on the tree and fell. That man was lying there unconscious and all those people were doing was staring at him discussing something among themselves trying their mobiles on some help line. No one even cared to take him to the nearby hospital....and guess what, 5 of them had their cars with them!
What can I say? WT doesn't allow to use slangs or abusive language or else this post would have consist of the worst slangs that you have ever heard of.

Me and my friends arranged for a cab and we took him to the hospital.
We checked for his ID card in his wallet and some home contact on his phone....and we called them.

We went to the spot of accident, and collected his stuffs. There was a packet of sweets lying there. He might have got promoted. And he was drunk (must be in celebration).

We waited there. After like 25 minutes we went it and we got to know that guy is no more. He f**king died in front of us!

Only if those people would have brought him a bit earlier, only if we would have went out a bit earlier...he might have been living.

I don't know what to say. It seems like, we are just called as humans.
Yes, we are a part of mankind...We are man but are we kind?

[Richard Howardson]

Well recently I saw this movie, "The Notebook". I have been hearing about it a lot from my friends. And i now know why....it's worth it. I almost cried..lolz.

[Richard Howardson]

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May the spirit of Christmas bring you peace,
The gladness give you hope,
The warmth grant you love.

~Richard Howardson~

[*Elle*]

Hope you had a nice holiday!

[Richard Howardson]

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[*Elle*]

^^Nice Richard!

[Richard Howardson]

thanks honey....you should see on emo forum, i got some really nice comments on the portrait of avril there.

[Richard Howardson]

went on a long drive wid a girl after long. It was realy gr8.

[*Elle*]

someone has a girlfriend lol...

[Richard Howardson]

O_O

NO NO!!!


she's not my girlfriend i went out with. just a good friend. i can think about it though

but nothing for now.

[*Elle*]

Ha ha..
Enjoy it..
Ive been off school all week cause of snow...Im praying to go to school tommorow..Im so sick of seeing these rooms

[Richard Howardson]

It's still snowing there?!!

[*Elle*]

Yeah we've have close to 30 inches..
More is coming...

[Richard Howardson]

hope it will go soon.

hey..you know what...i was reading our old chats...and i really do miss you, badly. I almost cried tonight.

i don't know what to say now. i should better go for now.

take care.

[*Elle*]

Ha.. Don't cry!

[Richard Howardson]

yipppeee....you online!!!

I was waiting for you. I didn't cry really. I don't cry now.

so how are you?

[Richard Howardson]

Are you gone?

[*Elle*]

Sorry I posted then left..

[Richard Howardson]

hmm....it's k.

i was just missing you badly so...you know....

anyways, no problem. take care.

[Richard Howardson]

"Hey, what's up? How do you do?" is what everyone's asking me.
As a matter of fact from those thousands asking it...very few really care about how i feel.
So when someone asks me...all I do is reply with a nice and happy smile..."I'm fine, what about you?"

Do I tell them if i'm having a bad day?
NO!!!
Why?
Trust me. You really would not wanna be anywhere near me when I'm having a bad day.

Oh...but some people insist on telling what's wrong with me. But I really don't want to repeat the whole thing again and again like a tape recorder. So I'll tell you all here.

Wondering why I've put it on the discussion board?
Cuz some people i know of really want to discuss this.




So how do i do?

There's this very good friend (as i considered her), who is not talking to me cuz her boyfriend has a problem with me. Her bf thought there's something going on between us and he broke up with her. But then he told her that he's ready to come back if she stops talking to me or having any kind of contact.
So she did so cuz she loved him very much and has all that whatever feelings for him.

But you know...I'm just fine.


And hey, there's this girl...and we have been in relation for quite long now. I think she's really great. Though she says she's not. Now having a relation for this long, she believes that all I want is sex and nothing else.


How do I feel?


How would you feel when the person you considered as your friend...and you try to do everything to keep 'em happy leaves you just like that.?!

How would you feel when all your life you try to give your partner the best of you and your partner tells you that you don't love them?!


And people ask me how do i do?
I won't speak much..but let me tell you how do i feel.

I feel like "The Hulk" or like the beast when Saiyans transform during the full moon....I feel like destroying everything which crosses my path. I want to demolish every single bit of it.

Well...that's that.


but hey, don't worry....I'm just fine

[Richard Howardson]

Man...it's been long. hope everything's fine with all you guys. Christmas gonna be here so I guess you'll be busy.

Anyways, just an update. I'm working on a video for this Christmas. Not very Christmas-y though. Kinda sad. It's in memory of my girlfriend who died in an accident. Just cuz it was Christmas when she told me that she's in love with me, I thought it was the least I could do.

take care you all.

[TheMudge]

I knew the site was slow, but this is ridiculous.

[Richard Howardson]

huh?